Leah.

Ok, this time is Leah's turn to have a story. I'm writing it in part to be able to see the funny side of it and to distract myself....
Ok, so I gave the girls lunch, and I made them juice, and I bougth a chocolate cake to have for dessert. Everything was well, until Leah decided she didn't want to drink the juice and she threw it on the floor. I told her to go to her room and take her clothes off while I cleaned up the mess, and then I asked her if it had been an accident or if she did it on purpose, and she confesed that she did it because she didn't want to drink the juice. (ok, I'm about to strangle someone...) ok... so I told her that because she told me the truth I was not gonna spank her, but that I was not gonna give her dessert and she was not gonna be able to play with chalk outside today. She started crying and crying, and then she came to the kitchen and told me she was gonna change her name, and I said "ok, so what are you gonna be called now?" and she said, I don't know, something sad, because the only things that could make me happy now are a slice of chocolate cake and play with chalk, so if you let me have that I will change my name back to Leah".....

Bella.

I am going to be posting stories about the girls, mostly for our parents (mine and Dane's) but I hope you all can anjoy them too. Right now I have one about Bella that just happened and I have to write it before I forget.
I was in Giada's room changing her diaper and Leah came screaming at the top of her lungs to change the channel. I know what happened: the Brady Bunch started, and obviously she doesn't like that show, so, I'm teasing her asking why she wants me to change it if that's her favorite show, when I hear Bella running down the hallway also screaming "mami change the channel, change the channel!!" so I ask her tissing her too, to change what and she says "the channel" and I say, but why, what's playing?" and she says: "the show about the bunch of stories of the little lady" hahahahaha!!!!
If you didn't get the joke, here is the part of the introductory song that she was reffering to: "here's the story of the lovely lady, who was bringing up 3 very lovely girls........ the bardy bunch, the brady bunch".....

Conversation between Dane and Scott.

I want to share stories about the girls as often as I can, but I thought that this story was best told in a conversation that Dane had with his dad. This conversation took place through instant message on 04/20/09 almost 11 pm Utah time, 04/21/09, almost 1 pm KL Malaysia time.

10:54:28 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: Tell me if you get this message
[10:55:14 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: I dont' know i fthis is working
[10:55:19 PM] Scott Sanders: Yes, got it.
[10:55:24 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: perfect
[10:55:50 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: Okay so I'll tell you what happened to us yesterday with Leah.
[10:55:50 PM] Scott Sanders: Yeah, I couldn't hear you at all. Surprised you could hear me.
[10:56:10 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: Yeah, your image and voice were coming through just as good as ever.
[10:57:18 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: Annie and I pushed the girls in their strollers up to Granite Park. They loved the walk and were very excited to start playing once we got there.
[10:58:20 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: Leah climbed up to the top of a platform that had a few slides to choose from and I was standing about 3 feet behind her so I could see and hear her, but she didn't know I was there.
[11:00:34 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: She stood about a foot and a half away from the slide and was just staring at it and started saying, "ok, now I know that I'm scared, but I have to try" After saying those words she took two 'very confident' steps toward the slide and started the process of sitting herself down in place. Finally she pushed herself down until gravity took over.
[11:01:31 PM] Scott Sanders: What a sweetheart! Good for her! Tell her I'm very proud of her.
[11:02:23 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: She got to the bottom of the slide and she turned around and it was obvious she was looking around to see where Annie and I were. I went over to her and told her what a great job she did and that I was so proud of her. She smiled back at me and said, "Dad, I was so scared, but I just knew I could do it!"
[11:03:38 PM] Scott Sanders: I love that little girl so much! good to talk to you. Hopefully we'll get this figured out.
[11:04:06 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: Yeah, I'm kind of glad it's not working right this minute. I've totally lost my composure.
[11:04:19 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: I miss you dad.
[11:04:38 PM] Scott Sanders: I miss you too. Bye for now.
[11:04:45 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: Bye.
[11:05:27 PM] Dane Ana Sanders: Tell mom I love and miss her too.

Things that I'm grateful for, things that I miss, and things that I hope for.

When I look at my life as a whole, I can't use just one word to describe it, because I am just so full of different feelings and emotions, that just one word wouldn't suffice. I can't say that I am where I want to be in life, but I can't say that I'm not happy, because I am very happy. I can't say that I have everything that I want or everybody that I love, but I have a lot of people that I love, and a lot of the things that I want. There are things that I look forward to, and things that I miss dearly, so I thought I would try to come up with a list of some of the things, just for the fun of it, and you can have fun with me if you want.
I am so grateful for Dane. He is not perfect, and I am not perfect, but we grow together. I am better because of him, and he sais he's better because of me. In so many ways, I feel that he was created just for me, just by looking at his eyes I feel that my life is perfect and I understand the meaning of life. If I try to tell all the reasons why I love him so much, you would be reading this blog for a whole week. I am grateful for my girls. My biggest fear before I had Leah, was not being able to have kids, because I wanted it so much, but this goes far beyond being a mom or have kids. it is about being Leah's and Bella's and Giada's mom. They just make me SO happy, they are so wonderful and loving and have such big personalities. They brighten up my life, and I cannot imagine what my life would be without them. I am grateful for the gospel, for the principals that make my life so happy. Knowing that I can be with my family forever, that we won't be separated by time, or death or anything... I can't think of anything better than that. I love them so much that one lifetime is not enough. I'm grateful for eternity with my loved ones.
I miss my best friend. She's in Colombia and I just miss her so much. I feel that everybody that I know here already has a very exclusive circle of friends with no need for new ones, So I feel very lonely "girlfiend" wise. I miss Colombian food mmmmm..... I miss visiting with my mom and going "eye shopping" on saturdays. I miss dancing. I miss green all year long. I DON"T miss being freakishly white. Here, i'm just normal.
I hope Dane can go back to school. And Leah, she sure was learning so much. I hope that Giada doesn't have to be the last baby we have. I hope we can buy a nice house when we move out of here. I hope that when is time to move I can just close my eyes and magicaly appear in the new home, and don't have to go thru packing and unpacking again ;) I hope that one day I can have everybody that I love close to me or at least the possibility to go visit them so I don't have to miss so many people so much. I hope I can give my girls a bright future, and that I can teach them all I'm supposed to teach them. I hope I can be a good example for them and that I can be everything my Heavenly father wants me to be.